Embracing Repentanceā€”I canā€™t live without it!

Two men go up to the temple to pray. One returns home a new man, justified. The other says a deluded prayer and returns home unchanged. (Luke 18:9ff) What made the difference?

Two sons of a loving father take different paths. One wanders. The other stays home. When the wanderer comes home he is welcomed with open arms and a party is thrown on his behalf; the other sulks in the hallway, bitter and jealous that his hard work goes unnoticed. What made the difference?

I have been struck lately with the absolute necessity of repentance for living life as a Christ-follower. It is not a bitter pill to be avoided but the very provision of God for our Joy! A life of repentance is His design for us as He does the work of transforming us to be like His Son. Without it we are destined to leave prayer unchanged and to be continuous party poopers!

I’m not good at the stuff of repentance. It’s hard on me, because to my mind, repentance has always implied wrongdoing, blame, and guilt–all concepts at odds with being RIGHT, good, and blissfully unaware of guilt. I have resisted admission of culpability all my life. I have tried to be a ‘good’ girl (or at least to look good). Yet in the pursuit of being ‘good’ (isn’t that what parents tell their kids to be?!) I have too often skirted the real road to righteousness, and peace of mind, and JOY.

But God is faithful and He sees to it that I keep bumping into this concept of repentance, not just for the sinner over there, the one I can see and compare myself to with smug result, but the sinner right here in my seat. Repentance is not a one-time ordeal to be gotten over with, but a way of life.

I have too often preferred being ‘right’ to being repentant, being ‘good’ on the outside, to being honest about what’s in my heart.
I have for too long avoided blame as though my life depended on it.
AndĀ  I can relate far too readily to the Pharisee who stood smugly praying to himself(!): God, I thank you that I am not like other men–I do this, that and the other thing as evidence that I am superior to the common sinner…(Lk.18:11) This is not the way to heart change and growth!

My take on repentance–and here come my excuses–is perhaps due in part to being ‘born in church’ and not having had inclination or opportunity to commit ‘big’ sins (by our church’s measuring stick anyway!) I got in the bad habit of measuring sin by externals rather than the heart. To some extent my poor grasp of repentance is the product of a personality bent on pleasing others and satisfied with externals. But really, I suspect that my resistance to repentance is due to a depraved nature intent on earning the love it needs rather than confessing its unworthiness. Pride is at the core. I have wanted to be right, or at least to appear so. I have seen this as essential to acceptance–God’s and others’. I have been wrong. So once again I am faced with my need to repent, but this time I’m eager to embrace it as a good thing…

I finished Tim Keller’s book on Prayer recently. I appreciated his clarification of a false kind of repentance, what the Bible refers to as ‘worldly grief’ (II Cor.7:10). He points me to a better kind of repentance not fraught with desperate attempts at self-justification! This is not it:

“Legalistic repentance is destructive. In moralistic religion our only hope is to live a life good enough to require God to bless us. Every instance of repentance in this view of things is traumatic and unnatural—because it serves only to (we think) win back God’s favor through our misery. Without a firm grasp of our free justification, we will admit wrongdoing only under great duress, only as a last resort. We will focus on the behavior itself and be blind to the attitudes and self-centeredness behind it. We will also take as little blame as possible, reciting all the mitigating circumstances to ourselves and others. When we do try to repent in this legalistic frame of mind–since we can never be sure if we have been abject enough to merit God’s favor– we can never experience the release and relief of resting in Jesus’ forgiveness.”*

Yes. I know only too well this view of repentance. I have lived it. I want to learn to rest in God’s forgiveness while at the same time being quick to admit my sinfulness. I want to see sin as He sees it and to stop excusing and minimizing its presence in my life. Religiously keeping my own set of rules won’t stop sin’s inroads in my life. These only blind me to its presence. I need to learn a lifestyle of repentance.

True repentance is more opportunity than dread.

More Eureka!’ than ‘Aww rats; I’ve been caught’.

More, “Yes, You’re right Lord!” than ‘But I didn’t mean to..’.

More JOY than ‘If only…’.

This is the kind of repentance I want to learn. There is no truly Christian life without it. God is holy. Man is not. The gulf between necessitates admission of sin and guilt, and faith in the One who willingly paid the debt of sin I owed. This is the very foundation of becoming a Christ-follower. “Repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand” were Jesus’ own words (Mt.4:17). But repentance doesn’t stop there.

Repentance is essential to spiritual growth. Without it, every other spiritual discipline becomes another opportunity to add ‘Brownie points’ to my self-sustained righteous record. Luther was so bold as to assert that: When our Lord and Master, Jesus Christ, said “Repent”, He called for the entire life of believers to be one of repentance. This is the first of his ninety-five theses that sparked the Reformation. I had never read them till this week. In defense of this statement Luther points not only to Jesus’ command in Matthew 4 but also to His model for prayer– “Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name…forgive us our debts as we also have forgiven our debtors…”. As God’s children we are forgiven sinners, it is true, but sinners still, living in ‘bodies of death’ with a propensity for sin. This sin would enslave us, destroy our relationships and rob us of joy were it not for repentance.

Repentance is the only sure path to righteousness. I was thinking about the fellow we know as ‘the rich young ruler’ who came to Jesus to find out what he needed to do to obtain eternal life. He had riches. He had a great moral record. But he didn’t have the life Jesus was talking about and he knew it. The outcome of their conversation was the man turning away in great sadness, unwilling to relinquish his love of money for love of God. And Jesus used him as an object lesson to teach his followers how difficult it is for a rich man to enter the Kingdom of God. “It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to enter the kingdom of God.” (Lk.18:25) His listeners were incredulous: “Then who can be saved?!” Riches won’t do it. Not the riches of dollars and cents or the riches of a fine Christian heritage and moral standard. And I thought, How difficult it is for a self-righteous man to enter the kingdom of God! With men it is impossible but not with God! His kindness leads me back to the Saviour who came not for the righteous, but for sinners (Luke 5:24).

This reminds me of Christ’s rebuke to the Laodicean church: They thought of themselves as rich, successful and in need of nothing. Self-satisfied. But in fact they were wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked. It’s a case of “The Emperor’s New Clothes” revisited. I may not be monetarily rich but if I think of myself as ‘needing nothing’ including repentance! this is a word for me. These first chapters of Revelation are not addressed to the godless who have not yet come to know saving faith. These are messages to the Church. And this one is a call to ‘be zealous and repent.’

But it is a call to repentance driven by love. The God who calls us to repentance has designed us to know rich fellowship with His Son. Our sin prevents this from happening. So He stands at the door waiting for us to invite Him in for tea and fellowship. He waits for us to confess our sins, to be honest with who we are and what we’re up to. He longs to give us what we lack– true riches, His white garments of righteousness and eye salve so that we can see as He sees. (Rev.3:18ff) Repentance is the means to these! It leads to LIFE as we were meant to live it–flawed but forgiven, freed from guilt to celebrate our Father’s love forever. I want this. So I’m asking God to do for me what only He can, to grant repentance in all those areas to which I’m blind and to make me to know truth in my innermost being. (Cf. II Tim.2:25).

Living without repentance is not an option. When I assume I’m faultless (or that my faults are no big deal) I delude only myself. I will never be good enough to live without repentance. I won’t outgrow my need of it this side of glory. But in the meantime it is God’s means for my blessing–for restoration of JOY, of peace, of freedom and of rich relationships with Him and others.

Behold, You desire truth in the inward parts, And in the hidden part You will make me to know wisdom. Ps.51:6

Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! Ps.139:23-24

–LS

“God, having raised up his servant [Jesus], sent Him to you first, to bless you by turning every one of you from your wickedness.” Acts 3:26

Or do you presume on the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentance? Rom.2:4

Blessed is the man against whom the LORD counts no iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no deceit. Ps.32:2

“Restore to me the joy or your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.” Ps.51:12

Truly no man can ransom another, or give to God the price of his life, for the ransom of their life is costly and can never suffice, that he should live on forever and never see the pit. Ps.49:7-9

“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart O God, you will not despise.” Ps.51:17

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I commend to you a closer look at these stories of repentance…

–David’s story– Psalm 51 [Historical Context: II Samuel 11, 12]

–The Prodigal and his elder brother–Luke 15

–Paul’s story: Acts 9 and 26; Philippians 3

–And don’t forget Luke 18…the parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector and the story of the rich young ruler…

*See Timothy Keller’s PRAYER: Experiencing Awe and Intimacy with God.
Dutton, 2014. p.210.

The God of Surprise Endingsā€¦

 

Itā€™s not what we had hoped, not what we imagined, not what we had wished for, nevertheless, it is where weā€™re atā€¦

Have you been there?

John the Baptist was.Ā  Heā€™d been faithful, truthful, and God-honoring.Ā  And there he sat in a Roman prison awaiting the verdictā€¦

Naomi was.Ā  Sheā€™d left her home-country with her husband and sons to wait out the famine.Ā  Her sons had married but had no children and now both husband and sons were dead.Ā  And she found herself aged and all but alone in a foreign culture.

Samsonā€™s parents had raised him as best they could.Ā  Theyā€™d followed Godā€™s directives. Perhaps theyā€™d spoiled him just aĀ  bit butā€¦ now heā€™d been captured by the enemy, blinded and put to slave labor like a common ox.Ā  And then, he was deadā€”a hero of sorts, itā€™s true, but dead nonethelessā€¦

Job saw the worst of it.Ā  Disaster upon disaster. His children were all tragically killed in a single day.Ā  His wife even failed him.Ā  This is not how a life of faith should end, is it?

Sarah and her husband waited long years for the promised heir. Every birthday a bitter reminder that they were infertileā€¦

A childhood friend lies in hospice care soon to breathe his last leaving a young daughter who has already lost her mother to cancer.

Sweet kids grow up to be rebellious teens wreaking havoc on their families.

Christians are brutally slaughtered for no better reason than their faith.

These would all be tragedies if it werenā€™t for the surprise endings God writes into their scripts.Ā  Even death is not final.Ā  And with God our bitter ends are only beginnings, opportunities for His eternal power to shine.

Things seldomĀ  ā€˜turn outā€™ the way weā€™d imagined they would.Ā  It doesnā€™t seem ā€˜rightā€™ā€¦But we arenā€™t given the last word.Ā  Our sense of whatā€™s right is surely flawed.Ā  Only eternity will show the perspective weā€™ve missed.Ā  Our stories are not about us.Ā  God is at work to showcase through us His manifold wisdom, to the rulers and authorities in the heavenly realms (see: Eph.3:10)We are creatures locked in time while God is eternal, working out His eternal purposes in these fragile bodies and their earth-bound relationships.

John the Baptist is beheaded but his testimony lives on to the glory of God: ā€œVerily, I say unto you, among them that are born of women there hath not risen a greater than John the Baptist: notwithstanding he that is least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he.ā€ Mt.11:11

Naomi introduces a Moabite to the One true God and in so doing brings her into the family line of Jesus.

Samson delivers Israel from oppression through his death and is written up in the Hall of Faith as one who pleased God, leaving a legacy of hope to those of us who fail to be perfect parents to perfect kids.

Job confirmedĀ  Godā€™s bragging rights in the heavenly realms.Ā  ā€œHave you seen my servant Jobā€¦ā€ and we all know the surprise ending of his life even on this side of heaven: ā€œSo the LORD blessed the latter end of Job more than his beginningā€¦ā€Job 42:12

Sarah was given the gift of laughter with the coming of a son in her old-age. It was the last thing sheā€™d expected.

These are just glimpses we are given of Godā€™s surprising ways of doing things.Ā  Again and again He interjects hope and purpose into the worst case scenarios of life.Ā  He takes our would-be bitterness and transforms it into better-ness.

Wherever youā€™re at in His story, God is not finished yet.Ā  Who knows what He will yet do with the raw materials of our lives?!Ā  This is no time to give up hope.Ā  The best is yet to come!

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Our best hopes are yet future.Ā  We, like our Christian kin of old, look for a city whose designer and maker is God (Heb.11:10)Ā  This earth is not our forever home.Ā  Looking back at the way things might have been will not do.Ā  (Lotā€™s wife learned the hard way).Ā  God beckons us to press on for the prize awarded to those who trust Him with all the ups and downs of life.Ā  He can be trusted to do the unexpected.

ā€œYet God my King is from of old, working salvation in the midst of the earth.ā€ Ps.74:12

–LS

For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised. Heb.10:36

For, “Yet a little while, and the coming one will come and will not delay;Ā  but my righteous one shall live by faith, and if he shrinks back, my soul has no pleasure in him.”Ā  But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls. Heb.10:37-39 ESV

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.Ā  And what shall I more say? for the time would fail me to tell of Gideon, and of Barak, and Samson, andĀ  Jephthae; David also, and Samuel, andĀ  the prophets: Who through faith subdued kingdoms, wrought righteousness, obtained promises, stopped the mouths of lions, Quenched the violence of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, out of weakness were made strong, waxed valiant in fight, turned to flight the armies of the aliens.Ā  Women received their dead raised to life again: and others were tortured, not accepting deliverance; that they might obtain a better resurrection:Ā  And others had trial of cruel mockings and scourgings, yea, moreover of bonds and imprisonment: They were stoned, they were sawn asunder, were tempted, were slain with the sword: they wandered about in sheepskins and goatskins; being destitute, afflicted, tormented;Ā  (Of whom the world was not worthy:) they wandered in deserts, and in mountains, and in dens and caves of the earth. And these all, having obtained a good report through faith, received not the promise. Heb.11:1, 32-39 KJV

For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. II Cor. 4:17-18

Sing praises to the LORD, O you his saints, and give thanks to his holy name. For his anger is but for a moment, and his favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning. Ps.30:4,5 ESV

When the LORD restored the fortunes of Zion, we were like those who dream. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with shouts of joy; then they said among the nations, “The LORD has done great things for them.”Ā  The LORD has done great things for us; we are glad. …Ā  Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy! Ps.126:1-3, 5 ESV

Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us,Ā  to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen. Eph. 3:20-21

Not a Check-Off List

Iā€™ve been put in my place this week, reminded that it is not the holier-than-thou that enjoy fellowship with God, but the truly holy.  And being holy is not essentially about what I do, itā€™s about what Jesus has done.

It all started with a sermon on Psalm 15—ā€œO Lord, who shall sojourn in your tent?ā€ is how the ESV puts it. ā€œWho shall dwell on your holy hill?ā€
A list ensues– 
–The one who is without blame and does whatā€™s right, who speaks the truth, not just aloud, but in his heart. 
–The one who doesnā€™t slander or harm his neighbor or criticize his friendsā€¦and etc.

My natural impulse sitting there listening to this list was to compare myself to it.  OK, so this is confession time, bear with me.  I tend to read down through such lists with a bent to justify myself.  I see them as check-off material, a measure of how Iā€™m doing.  And as long as I read quickly and donā€™t think too carefully about the implications of each command, Iā€™m good.  Yep.  Iā€™ll be tenting up on the Hill tonight.

Oh dear, but the pastor didnā€™t let us off the hook so readily.  He got down to the nitty-gritty of these conditions.  Blameless?  Always doing the right thing? Never slandering? Always honest?  Who can meet these conditions?  Neither you nor I.  Only Jesus.  He said there are basically two ways to look at what the Bible is about. The way you see it will determine what you do with a Psalm like this one. 

Do you see the Bible as a book about what YOU need to do to approach God?  Or as the revelation of what God has done so you can access Him? One view leads eventually to despair (or to blind arrogance?), the other to hope.  One view puts the focus on me, the other on Christ.

I needed this reminder this week.  It came on the heels of days of pondering the concept of our God being a consuming fire?  There have been record numbers of wildfires raging in our neck of the woods this summer, some on our own mountain.   While we were away, lightning lit the tinder-dry slopes just outside of our town.   Meanwhile back at the coast, our old home town had smoke-laden days and ash falling from neighboring fires there.  And we, hours from there, were cycling along a lake in Washington noting smoke rising just over the hill while helicopters dipped in and out of the lake ferrying water to the spot.  Fire everywhere!  There were evacuation alerts for people we know, and some terrifyingly awesome footage emailed to us of the fire raging nearest our home. image4

It could be said to be beautiful if it werenā€™t so terrifying.  image1image2

I couldnā€™t help reflecting on what the writer of Hebrews meant when he said: ā€œā€¦for our God is a consuming Fireā€.

image3 What does this mean!? 
It certainly precludes any notion of marching up His holy hill with my little basket of home-grown fruit to offer! Cain tried that. This is not a place for check-lists that assure me Iā€™m ok based on what Iā€™ve done or not done. 

Exodus 19 gives such a list: the Ten Commandments, we call them.  But the context makes clear that these are no trifling commands to be checked off in order to draw near to God.  When Moses brought the people out of the camp to meet God they came to a mountain on fire, or at least lit up with lightning and resounding thunder, and shrouded in thick clouds (of smoke perhaps?).  And there was the warning: Donā€™t come near. Donā€™t even touch the mountain or youā€™re dead!

God was making a covenant with His people. He said: ā€œIf you will indeed obey my voice and keep my covenant, you shall be my treasured possession among all peoples, for all the earth is mine; and you shall be to me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation.ā€ Ex.19:5,6  Obey His voice?!  They were afraid to even listen to His voice. (Heb.12:19) The mountain shook.  Thunder and lightning terrified them and a very loud trumpet blast deafened them.  Moses, as a type of Christ, would be their representative.  He would go up the mountain to hear from God and return with His commands.  This was the setting for the giving of the Old Covenant with its rules and its regimens for dealing with sin when those rules were broken, as they inevitably would be.

Itā€™s good to look back and to be reminded of the vast gulf between myself and this holy God who calls me His own.  Looking at the Old Covenant, smelling the smoke of Mt. Sinai, and reflecting on this God who is yet a consuming fireā€¦makes me relinquish my check-lists and pause to give thanks for the One who has gone up the mountain on my behalf. Jesus has entered the Tent where God dwells. (Heb.9:11ff).  He mediates there on my behalf.

I commend to you a  reading and re-reading of Hebrews 8-12.  Iā€™ve been browsing there today.  What an amazing thing Christ has done as the mediator of a new covenantā€¦

ā€˜a death has occurred that redeems them from the transgressions committed under the first covenant.ā€™ (Heb.9:15)

ā€œFor by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified.ā€ (Heb.10:14)

Instead of check-lists that produce despair or stupid arrogance God has offered to put His laws in our minds, to write them on our hearts, and to empower us to do them by His very own Spirit within us (Heb.8:10). This is good news! Instead of living beside us in a Tent He has offered to live inside usā€”in these ā€˜tentsā€™ we call home for a while. (II Cor.5)  He looks with pleasure not on the one who claims to have done it all (see: Mark 10:17-27 for how that goes) but on the one who in faith believes that Christ Jesus has done it all on her behalf. (Yes, Lord! Thank-you!!)

Who may sojourn in His tent?  Who will dwell on His holy hill? 

By His grace, through faith in His Son, through no merit of my own I may humbly enter there because of what He has done.

Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire!  (Heb.12:28)

–LS

I commend to you a careful reading of Hebrews chapters 8-12, in conjunction with Exodus 19 and Psalm 15 and Jesusā€™ own words in John 14 and 15.  Oh, and II Corinthians 3,4 & 5 while youā€™re at it!

And this hymn comes singing through my heart saying it all:

Rock of Ages, cleft for me,
Let me hide myself in Thee;
Let the water and the blood,
From Thy wounded side which flowed,
Be of sin the double cure;
Save from wrath and make me pure.

Not the labor of my hands
Can fulfill Thy lawā€™s demands;
Could my zeal no respite know,
Could my tears forever flow,
All for sin could not atone;
Thou must save, and Thou alone.

Nothing in my hand I bring,
Simply to the cross I cling;
Naked, come to Thee for dress;
Helpless look to Thee for grace;
Foul, I to the fountain fly;
Wash me, Savior, or I die.

While I draw this fleeting breath,
When mine eyes shall close in death,
When I soar to worlds unknown,
See Thee on Thy judgment throne,
Rock of Ages, cleft for me,
Let me hide myself in Thee.

–Augustus M. Toplady, 1776

A Many-splendored Love

I am away from my computer this week so may I leave you with just a short thought I have been pondering?

What if we believed, really believed that all God does and all He allows in our lives is done in loveā€¦what if we saw the ā€˜goodā€™ and the ā€˜badā€™ as tokens of His love at work in us?

Itā€™s easy enough to celebrate His steadfast love when things are going well and all is ā€˜tickety-booā€™ with us, but what about when things ā€˜go southā€™ as a friend puts it?Ā  What if we were to see His hand at work in this too?Ā  Always at workā€¦for our good and His glory.

All through Scripture we are told to pay attention to what God has done, to remember, to ā€˜beholdā€™, to considerā€¦I donā€™t know about you but my mind runs to the blessings, the amazing ā€˜goodā€™ things Iā€™ve known Him to do.Ā  I donā€™t straight way think of the hard things, the ā€˜disastersā€™, the hard things.Ā  But these too are a product of His hand at work in our lives and in our world.

IĀ  was just looking throughĀ  Psalm 107 for example.

It starts off well and good: ā€œLet the redeemed of the LORD say so, whom he has redeemed from troubleā€¦ā€Ā  We celebrate the redemption but what about the trouble?Ā  Sometimes itā€™s the direct result of our choices.Ā  Consequences.Ā  But even so, it is out of the Lordā€™s love and mercy that we are made to suffer consequences and so turn to Himā€¦

ā€¦then they cried to the LORD in their trouble; and he delivered them from their distressā€¦

ā€¦:So he bowed their hearts down with hard laborā€ (v.12)

ā€œSome were fools through their sinful ways and because of their iniquities suffered afflictionā€ (v. 17)

ā€œFor he commanded and raised the stormy wind which lifted up the waves of the sea.ā€ (v. 25)

ā€œHe turns rivers into a desertā€¦a fruitful land into a salty wasteā€¦ā€ (v.33,34)

Yikes!Ā  Did I read that right?

This psalm concludes: ā€œWhoever is wise, let him attend to these things;
let them consider the steadfast love of the LORD.ā€ (Ps.107:43)

Thereā€™s more to consider than at first meets the eye.Ā  This too I am pondering.Ā  His love endures forever, through every trial and crisis.Ā  Does my praise?

–LS

Bless our God, O peoples; let the sound of his praise be heard,Ā  who has kept our soul among the living and has not let our feet slip. …Ā  Blessed be God, because he has not rejected my prayer or removed his steadfast love from me! (Ps. 66: 8,9,20)

They have lyre and harp, tambourine and flute and wine at their feasts, but they do not regard the deeds of the LORD, or see the work of his hands. Therefore my people go into exile for lack of knowledge; their honored men go hungry, and their multitude is parched with thirst.
Is.5:12-13)

I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands. Ps.143:5

Bless the Lord, oh my soul, and forget not ALL His benefits!

The Best Summer Reading!

If youā€™ve been following my Ponderings for long you know Iā€™m a lover of the Word of God.Ā  It is a treasure to me.Ā  I read it, savor it, and commend it to you. [See Bible Reading Plans on the side pullout menu for more info]Ā  I aim to make it a priority in my life by reading it first and most, before man-made substitutes, and by meditating on it in order to let it shape my ponderings.

But some days, some weeks, it seems flat and lifeless to my palate.Ā  I donā€™t want to read it.Ā  And when I do, itā€™s just words on a page that Iā€™ve read before.Ā  Do you know what I mean?

This has happened to me just lately.Ā  It all started with a road trip and an audio book randomly selected to fill the hoursā€¦The road trip ended but the book wasnā€™t finished.Ā  Its ā€˜due dateā€™ is looming.Ā  I must find out whatā€™s going to happen; I must finish the book!Ā  So instead of filling my dayā€™s lazy moments with the Word of God, I default to the audio book.Ā  Itā€™s well-composed, seems to be based on thorough research and first-hand knowledge, and is a fascinating look into a culture completely foreign to me.Ā  But it is painfully sad, full of intense loneliness and hopelessness and of futile efforts to escape that pain.Ā  It is a graphic picture of man without God and without hope in the world (Eph.2:12).Ā  A remedy is suggested but because the author writes from a false worldview her remedy is nothing more than wishful thinking born of mindless meditation. She is talented and has written well but I feel as though Iā€™ve been dragged back to the Garden and am being offered a taste of The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, as though it were the way to life.

In reality the storyā€™s characters, representations of a whole culture, are without hope apart from a hearing of Godā€™s Words.Ā  As a culture they have believed lies and are reaping the deadly consequences.Ā  No wonder the suicide rate in their country is among the highest in the world.Ā  Death seems the only reasonable escape from a life too painful to live.

I donā€™t often venture into the world of fiction. I find it too captivating, too time consuming for the value gained, and too distracting from real life.Ā  But the due date is tomorrow and the story is not quite resolved.Ā  Will the main characters commit suicide?Ā  Will hope arise from some unseen quarter?Ā  Will the author give convincing evidence that Zen Buddhism is the answer to the despair that consumes her characters?

In one sense this ā€˜readā€™ has been like an overdose of junk food, which spoils the appetite without nourishing the body.Ā  In its offering of novelty and the knowledge of evil it has been a distraction for me from the Words of Life I am committed to living by. But it is no substitute.Ā Ā  Itā€™s just the story of the Garden all over again.Ā  The author has a thinly masked agenda.Ā  Her storylineĀ  is her means of proposing a better way to live– Life is painful and confusing; Godā€™s not noticing; try this– and she elaborates on the virtues and methods of Zen Buddhism ad nauseum throughout her story. It is a classic case of ā€˜the way which seems right to a manā€™Ā  but only leads to death.

But I donā€™t intend a book review here. In fact despite its being a well written and researched book I wonā€™t recommend it. But what it has done for me in the end is to send me running back to the Word for refreshment.Ā  Too much junk food is too much.Ā  There are no answers here, no hope, no joy.Ā  Iā€™ve been struck by the contrast of worlds.Ā  I live known and loved and prone to taking this for granted.Ā  The story has reminded me that this is not a given.Ā  Whole cultures, whole countries of people whom God has created to know and love Him,Ā  are ignorant of this reality.Ā  They are in need of the hope that is only found in the God of the Bible.Ā  Though initially my reading of (or in this case, listening to) this book suppressed my appetite for the Ultimate Story.Ā  In the end it has sent me running back for the water of the Word. It washes off the sliming of human words and it refreshes me more deeply than human words can ever do.

Before I got out of bed this morning I sat and read life-giving Words because I didnā€™t want to start the day without them. Junk food doesnā€™t satisfy the appetite it provokes.Ā  Only real Food can do that.
I find in the Bible the ā€˜God of hopeā€™ reaching out His hands to a people who ā€˜walk in a way that is not good, following their own devices; a people who provoke me to my face continuallyā€¦ā€™.Ā  (Is.65).Ā  My mind flits back to the story Iā€™ve been reading.

ā€˜Here am I, here am Iā€™ God calls.

I turn to Job where he confirms that there is no hope for the godless but that the fear of the Lord is the path of wisdom, and that turning away from evil is the essence of understanding.Ā  No amount of empty meditation will enlighten in this way. (Job 27,28)

In the pages of this Story, God Most High Possessor of heaven and earth, befriends man.Ā  He shows Himself to be the only justifiable cause for fear and at the same time allays manā€™s fear: ā€œFear not, I am your shield and very great rewardā€ (Gen.15).

He rescues man from slavery and death and turns the curses against him into a blessing.(Deut.23,24)

He pens manā€™s name in the Lambā€™s book of Life not based on anything he can do or has done, but based on faith. (Rev.20,21)

In these pages the ā€˜God of hopeā€™ introduces HimselfĀ  to mankind.Ā  He freely reveals the Truth by which those who believe are filled with peace and joy. Then He gives His own indwelling Spirit as an eternal fountain of hope. (Rom.15)

It doesnā€™t matter where in these pages I turn.Ā  There is always hope.Ā  Here is the Story that will outlive even the best of classics.Ā  Here are words of truth and life that make for the best summer eating!

So I commend to you this summer as you find time to relax and to read, let the Words of God be your constant companion and commentary on the words of man. Let the words of man remind you of the lostness and confusion of man without God.Ā  Let them fuel your prayers for the lost and for those who write and speak the Words of Life into all the lost cultures of our world.Ā  But may the words of man always drive you back to the everlasting solace of the true and living Words of God.Ā  Then they will not have been a waste of time.

–LS

ā€œI have given them your Word and the world has hated them because they are not of the world…ā€ –Jesus (John 17:14)

“…as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for here, that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word… ā€œ Eph.5:26

Let the Word of Christ dwell in you richly… Col.3:16

“All flesh is like grass and all its glory like the flower of grass. The grass withers, and the flower falls,Ā  but the word of the Lord remains forever.”Ā  And this word is the good news that was preached to you.
I Pet.1:24,25

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If you should need a reading plan, check out the links at the bottom of my Bible Reading Plans page on the side pullout menu. –LS